If you’re a regular on Twitter, then you’ve definitely come across one of Sierra June’s videos.
This one might jog your memory:
These videos are clips from her animated series My Crynicles, a channel dedicated to narrating her experiences with men who have treated her badly.
I’d come across Sierra’s on Twitter. I found them floating around the timeline but I kept avoiding them because I knew I was going to get in my feels. People’s captions on the tweets were more than enough for me to know to stay away.
But the videos kept popping up and people’s comments were intriguing, so I clicked and dear Lord.
My temper went from zero to 100 real quick.
This anger came from a place of remembering. I have a loaded artillery of stories of being clowned, gaslit, and taken for a fool. Most of these stories come with personal reflections on where I could have done better, but as I’ve grown I’ve also allowed myself to accept the instances where I couldn’t have seen the madness coming my way.
Sierra narrates her shows in a straightforward manner – which comes across as endearing because she has one of the most innocent voices I’ve ever heard. She recalls her experiences from high school, starting with an ex-boyfriend who left her stranded in the rain for another girl.
This show is intense. You will laugh, you’ll shake your head, but you’ll also spend a lot of time nursing heavy chest pains.
A lot of the situations Sierra found herself in weren’t unique to her. They’re moments I’ve found myself in too. From the casual friend who turns into a demon, to the “good Christian brother” who’s not ready to commit but still wants to call you “wife”, there is enough content for you to relate to.
I think that’s why this series has grown to be what it is. A lot of us women can see ourselves in Sierra. We’ve met at least one of these guys. We’ve been sold dreams. We’ve endured gaslighting, emotional abuse, and all kinds of ugly. We’ve had moments where we share shamelessly long essays, pouring out our hearts in hope that the recipient will finally see us.
Many of us are also survivors of sexual assault & violence. We’ve had to fight our ways out of manipulation.
This show is so easy to get lost in because it speaks to our hearts. It’s a reminder that we’re not alone and that we’re seen.
We watch because we relate. We watch because we know.
There were moments where I’d find myself shouting, “Baby, no! Don’t do it!”
A part of me felt like I was shouting at my younger self, to be honest.
There’s a certain point in the series where things take an immensely heartbreaking turn and it’s hurt me to see women within my inner circle comment with, “That’s me.”
It hurts to know that women share a bond in surviving violence. In moments where we were stripped of our power. It hurts that we have to affirm ourselves with speeches, or castigate ourselves into believing we should have known better. I can’t wait until the day all the blame sits on the men who refuse to recognize boundaries and consent.
I can’t wait until we’re finally free from having to justify our actions.
It hurt to see that Sierra had to wait so long to speak on her pain. But, it was also so encouraging to see how she’s turned this into a way to help other women.
I feel proud of her when I watch this series because this is her telling her story on her terms. She’s owning her narrative and sharing her experiences openly. I feel proud of her as if I know her.
But she’s so vulnerable, by the time you finish the series, you’ll feel as if you know her, too.
Her latest video comes out this weekend. If you haven’t watched the series yet, then you need to add it to your immediate watchlist.
You can find her channel here.